Dear Diary,

9-3-2024

Today is Tuesday and it's been a week since my last day off. Which is nothing crazy really, but that is what my whole summer has consisted of. Working 6..10.. even 14 days straight and boy does it get old. I was suppose to start the semester in August and I was about to begin the last first day of school for me ever. Although I decided that this semester was not going to be financially doable, so I decided to go back in the spring. At first, it seemed like such a scary choice, mainly because of that fear of never going back. I will be the first in my family to graduate college, so that is enough motivation for me to finish. Just knowing that has given me a lot of stress, because I don't want to let any of them down. it just sucks because nowadays it feels like you don't even need college. What a waste of money. I recommend community college to anyone over paying $40,000 a year on a course you can cheat your way through.

Anyway as I was saying, today is my off day. I decided I was in dire need of some upkeep tanning (cause aint no way I'm walking around pasty) so I went to Makalei, which is a beach nearby. I am forever grateful I get to live a life so close to the ocean. Feeling the warm salt water touch my skin washes away all the worries in the world. It relaxes my brain and it allows me to refocus my energy on the things that matter most in this life. As I am getting older the things that mattered once to me like Snapchat scores, what others think of me, my phone, drinking and always trying to live the wild life, hold not a single ounce of importance to me now. These days I am in tune with my physical and mental health. Spending qaulity time with the right people. As well as trying to make changes now to prepare me for a better, successful, and fulfilling future.

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